I sat zazen again last night. I was in bed reading Everyday Zen and remembered what I had posted here earlier. I kinda cringed at first. I didn’t want to get out of the nice comfy position I had gotten myself into. But then I just got up and did it. I did a short 15 minute sitting and it felt good. There was pain and discomfort in my sitting but it just felt like the right thing to do.

I think what’s most important for me right now is developing the daily habit of sitting. The longer length sittings will come in time. I know I can sit for 40 minutes as I did it at my last visit to Mt. Equity, so I have nothing to prove to myself my forcing myself to sit for 40 minutes. It just doesn’t fit into my practice right now. I need to remember in terms of a lifelong Zen practice, I am still an infant. Crawling is just fine for me right now.

I feel content with my practice today. That’s a pleasant feeling. I like it.